It is supposed to be what I wanted all the time- the affirmation of my advisor in a form of RA（Research Assistantship).
How should I look at this ? Is it a punishment for not being determined enough in terms of dream or it is a gift to pay off my hardwork in the past three months?
It is supposed to be what I wanted all the time- the affirmation of my advisor in a form of RA.
However, after an internal meeting this morning, I came to the professor and told him that I thought I am not suitable in his lab. He asked me what I was interested in- I told him I was interested in literature and language. He told me that I was in his eyes being premature and I should learn more about what our lab is doing. He said that there is a way to combine what I love with what we are doing right now so that I do amazing things. He advised me to work on something in his view marvellous.
The moment he told me that he will fund me and he thinks I am promising and a very goal-driven girl. I don't know why I almost burst out tears when I said that I may quit.
It is not that I was hurt by something others said, it is that I want to be responsible for every choice I make. I want to do what I really want and do it the best.I know I will if I am determined enought, and that's what differs me from others.However, what if you are not sure what you want?
Before talking, several people talked in my mind-my mother, my roommates and other people who have affected me every time I tried to make a choice.I decided to follow what I felt at that moment. But finally, I ended up with what my advisor thinks is right for me.
At last, there is always someone to guide me to make a decision and that person is not me. Is it a punishment for not being determined enough in terms of dream or it is a gift to pay off my hardwork in the past three months?